Healing

Thank you for all the kind comments on my previous post.

Physically, things have improved greatly over the last week. Had my surgery on Monday and everything went as well as it could have.

Spent the week working from home so I could rest when I needed to but at the same time not have to use all my personal time being miserable.

Emotionally, I'm getting there. I think overall I'm doing better than could have been expected.

devastated

Yesterday was the worst day of my life (so far and I hope, hope, hope for a lifetime). I have a medical issue that shattered my world both physically and emotionally (I don't want to get into specifics for a number of reasons). The good news is that it's not permanent or life threatening and I will eventually be okay. Things are going to suck physically for about a week or so and emotionally for well... as long as it takes I guess.

The toughest thing for me right now is that talking is the worst. I just can't do it, and as a psychologist I know this freaks everyone around me out. Even thinking about talking to other people makes my eyes fill with tears and frankly I've cried enough in the last 24 hours to leave my eyes swollen, skin raw and my head pounding. I'm not sure I can take much more of it so I've been avoiding talking to everyone.

Even my husband who really is a comfort right now, I can't talk to. I thought I was okay this AM given that I actually slept rather well last night despite my concerns that I would not. Then the minute I started to speak to him I fell apart. I sent him out for the morning so that I could just feel more composed.

So I'm going to be quiet for a while, maybe after the physical issues are dealt with the emotional distress will ease a bit as well. I hope everyone understands, I know I have their love and support and that really is a comfort to me, right now I just don't have a voice to express it.

Cover Meme

And the worst... I can't even listen to the whole thing



I haven't kept track of who has done this and who hasn't so if you haven't consider yourself tagged.

So wrong!!

There is no bathtub in my hotel room. Granted I am not a huge bath person normally but if there was ever a time to take one it's when you're in a hotel room all by yourself because you're traveling for work!

Otherwise the room is great. I am loving the king size bed all to myself, but seriously I don't care about the pretty tiled stand up shower, I want a tub!! There was nothing about this on their website either.

Blogiversary

Apparently my blogiversary was April 28th. I totally missed it given my lack of blogging recently. Two major things have changed quite a bit since I started this blog.

1. I have switched careers from a highly sought after post doc at a top notch institution to a researcher for a non-academic (at all) non-profit.
   
2. DH and I bought a house and have begun to settle in here.
   

Even though ANJ has come with many ups and downs, I am feeling content with my decision although I am struggling with how to blog about my new position and my daily life without compromising my anonymity. I've had a bit of a breakthrough using the Wedding Cake Baker analogy but it does not fit for all the things I'd like to share.

My plan is to start applying for my own funding (to get out from under our crazy FC) and I hope to share that experience as it's different from grant writing and I'm sure many who are looking for non-academic positions would be interested in this experience so I'll do my best to find a way to share that with you.

I need to start revising my dissertation manuscript so I can submit it to another journal. I haven't had any motivation to start this but I am planning to make it a priority when I get back from my work trip.

I also hope to share my unbloggable personal situation soon.

Finally, I have a post brewing about reviewing articles for international journals.

So there's a preview of what's to come. I hope my readers remain interested and that some of what I have to say is helpful.

Long Weekend!!

I am so excited that it's a long weekend. The past few weeks have been intense with things gearing up at work for a busy summer and with my allergies skyrocketing out of control. It's been good to know I can get three solid nights sleep!

We're headed to a MLB game today, our anniversary (9 years) is Tuesday so I bought the tickets for my DH as a gift. It's been a rainy morning so we're crossing our fingers that it will clear up for the game this afternoon. Then we're headed to a BBQ tonight.

Tomorrow I think we'll be hanging out at home as I am actually leaving on a work trip tomorrow night. It's a bummer that it cuts into my long weekend but my meetings start early Tuesday morning so I had to fly tomorrow night in order to be there on time.

I'm looking forward to the work trip. The location is a cool place that I haven't visited before, I'll get to learn a lot and the company springs for a king room all for me. I don't know how much time I'll have to blog or to read blogs so I may not be around much for the next week. I'll be back Friday PM.

MIA

Sorry I've been Missing in Action as of late. There are a few blog posts I've been meaning to write, hopefully I can get around to it. I'm 230 posts behind in my reader too, I've been trying to catch up there too.

Non-bloggable personal issue has been taking up a lot of my time still. May become bloggable soon.

Also, last weekend was mother's day and DH and I hosted our in-laws for a weekend full of stuff (bday party, shopping, baseball game) culminating in a Mother's day brunch for 14. It was a lot of fun and I'm glad we did it, but man was I tired. I slept for like 3 hours after everyone left on Sunday.

This weekend I am sick. I thought it was allergies, I've been taking allergy meds (a 24 hour version) for about a month but since last weekend (when the pollen has just gone crazy) it just hasn't worked all that well. I started coughing on Friday and just figured it was allergies but I noticed today my glands are all swollen so I'm thinking maybe I have a cold. Either way it's not fun.