I woke up this morning thinking about how much weight I have gained, how crappy I feel about my body, how bummed out I am about the medical stuff I went through 2 months ago... and then I shook my head and thought why the hell am I doing this to myself?
I have no idea why I woke with such negative talk rolling around in my head but I'm doing what I can to get rid of it. I have fun weekend plans with family and I'm going to make an effort to enjoy myself and not beat myself up. Now if only my brain would cooperate.
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I think the brain is always the last one to cooperate.
Take baby steps, change takes time.
It happens to us all sometimes -- feminism and body acceptance are very important to me, but I have plenty of days when I look in the mirror and criticize myself. When the media tells us we need to buy things to fix ourselves every day, it just seeps into our brains. I'm glad you are fighting negative self talk with good thoughts!
I agree with Seeking Solace. I find that the emotional side of recovery is the slowest. I'm not sure if there is an adaptive reason for that -- maybe just to force ourselves to take time to fully experience the good and bad in life.
I hate negative talk-it starts such a vicious cycle. I've read that you just need to say positive things to yourself, even if you don't think they are true. It's suppose to stop the cycle, although I find it hard to do.
I haven't bounced over here in a while...sounds like you are going through a lot :o( I am going to send positive vibes your way...
Bummer... I hope you were able to get past this and that this upcoming vacation will be a really positive experience! Sometimes just trying to replace negative thoughts doesn't cut it. Dressing up, going out and doing things that negate the bad thoughts can be more helpful. I hope your vacay will be full of those sorts of things!
Thanks everyone.
Things have been better, my brain has been cooperating a bit better and I've been able to take it easy on myself.
I really do appreciate the comments!
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